I woke up in the middle of the night. Rain was lashing against the window like a cascade of little beads. I couldn’t get back to sleep. I started miring my brain in a deep valley of existential fear. Again. I rubbed Brian’s sleeping back, didn’t bother to wake him.
I feel better today. The sun is shining. But I still feel a bit stuck. I wish I knew how to calm myself. I feel like that book from a month ago has cursed me.
My body is sore from training, but I think today I am going to Osento to sit in the hot tub and sauna, which will hopefully help.
We had our housewarming/holiday party last night. It was pretty fun, but I felt a bit weird and demoralized that every single one of the eight people I invited either didn’t show or canceled at the last minute. So it was just me and Brian, and my roommate’s friends. Oh well. At least we had fun dancin and eating good treats.
I am trying super hard not to take it personally that all my friends were sick on the same night and couldn’t make it.
Yeah, I guess I am feeling down, huh. I should do something about that.
What I really want is for winter to end… but it hasn’t even started.
man… the dancing really wore me out last night.
thanks for the backrub, I was probably too busy snoring to show my appreciation at the time.
You are like some kind of wild dancin machine, mang. You’ve got some serious moves! With the elbows and the boshikens and what not…
I was in wisconsin on saturday night, I’m sorry. I didn’t realize that I had a final on saturday when I made plans to go home for that weekend. (UWM’s enrollment has been growing by leaps and bounds, and one effort that the University has made to deal with space constraints is having classes and finals on saturdays)
Awwww… yeah, I was wondering what had happened to you! Well, the kitties missed ya too. Sasha is YUGE now! Though still not as big as Simon, who is nearly 19 pounds.
of the three parties and one rave i planned to go to, i wanted to go to your shindig the most. i still haven’t met your boyfriend, for chrissake. i’m sorry janey-dawg. i slept for 14 hours :/ i was a sweaty, nauseated, achy, exhausted lump.
this season has been so unfair so far! last saturday i was all dressed up and ready to paint the town and had nowhere to go. this saturday i had FOUR events and i was in a coma.
it’s all so unfair! *cries*
I’m sorry ertie! Well we really should do something this week! Let me know which night works best for you…
i wanted to come by, i really did! we were seeing The Hard Nut in berkeley…i am pretty sure i told you though? december is a hard month for parties…let’s try again next month!
xo
rena