I listened to this song a lot while I was pregnant and listening to it now makes me cry even more.

“Where is my Love” by Cat Power

Where is my love
Where is my love
Horses running free
Carrying you and me

There is my love
There is my love
Horses galloping
Bringing you to me

The fetal monitor I was attached to while in labor sounded like a galloping horse. I listened to it for 16 hours, then it haunted me for the entire next day. When her heart rate dropped, I pictured a herd of wild horses, and willed her to recover. She is a strong baby.

My days are monotonous and I am losing track of time. All I really think of is how long until the next feeding. She needs to feed every 90-120 minutes so she can gain weight. Still not over her birth weight. Please think good thoughts for us.